10 Days.. So much but yet Nothing

 Why did you let me in when you were never earnest about me?

Why did you make me feel loved when you had no intention of loving me?

Why did we hold hands sneakily, avoiding stranger’s eyes?

Why did you keep me by your side when you never intended to stay?

Why did you watch me undress when you were never ready to see the vulnerabilities that lay within?

Why did you let me ruffle your curly messy hair each night? When you knew you’d leave all along

Why did you lend me your clothes with your smell all over me, just to wash it all away?

Why did you cuddle on rainy and cozy days instead of being out in the wild?

Why did you sleep on my lap with your hands wrapped around me like lovers protecting each other? When you had no intention of protecting us?

Why did we dance together embarrassingly? Just to never dance together ever again?

Why did you hold back when I  could feel you longing for more?

Why were you so scared? Was it because it was real? Or just one of the many moments you felt?

While I feel goosebumps recalling and even writing this, memories still fresh like it was just yesterday, you would have washed away the memories..

Why did we feel so much in 10 days just for it to dissolve into nothing?

Did not know it was love until I tried letting go just to realize I was still longing for it but aware that I’d never have it again

Maybe some people really go through life together, but it wasn't for us..